Personal Update

Hey guys,

I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a long time. I’m going through kind of a rough time. This isn’t a post I planned or anything, so I’m just going to openly tell you what’s going on. My boyfriend of 2 years and I broke up last week. It was pretty mutual, but that surprisingly didn’t make it any less painful. I was extremely hurt by things that he said to me during this break up, even though I know it wasn’t necessarily intended. Anyway, I’ll be getting back to writing soon so leave me some comments about what you want me to talk about. 

Thanks guys,

Emmy

More Like "Abercrombie and Bitch!"

Hello all,

                I have a whole list of things that I’ve been wanting to write about and just have not gotten around to it, so just bear with me, because a few of my topics are going to backtrack a little bit…like this one! This is a very sensitive topic, so I would value anything any of you beautiful people have to say about it.

                One topic in the media that actually got a genuinely real reaction from me was the whole “Abercrombie and Fitch” situation. You know, the one in which the president of the company (or something like that) essentially said that he didn’t want larger people wearing their clothes because he doesn’t want “those types of people” representing their brand? I have only one thing to say to this….are you freaking joking??? Talk about isolating clientele!

                First of all, this is really concerning to me because in today’s society, young teenagers don’t need to be pressured about their bodies any more than they already are by the media. And who are basically the only people you know that buy and wear Abercrombie and Fitch clothing? Middle and high schoolers. It just so happens that this is also when body image issues arise and are the most intense! Trying to shop at a store so you can fit in at school and then being told that they don’t have your size because they don’t want larger people representing their brand would be absolutely devastating to a 13 or 14 year old. In addition, they only sell XL sizes in men’s shirts (for more muscular men), but they don’t carry any at all for women. One word: sexist. And we all know how small those clothes run. If anything, they’re just cutting down the number of customers that could purchase their clothing. How much sense does that make?

                Let’s also keep in mind that all of this bullcrap is on top of them only hiring the equivalent of super models to work in their stores. Trust me, I get it. Your looks are almost always a part of your job, or at least to a certain point. I don’t know about you, but the only thing that it does for me is make me feel like shit whenever I go in there! And not in a “I want to buy your clothes so I can look more like her” kind of way. I know they’re not the only store that does this, but it’s why I choose not to even go into Hollister or Gilly Hicks either.

                My main question is: Since when can a store tell us, paying customers, whether or not we can wear their clothing based on our body type? What does it say about our country that, knowing this, people still shop there and their stores are thriving? It saddens me that a store’s “image” can dictate which customers are good enough to purchase their products. Please let me know of your opinions about this. Being a somewhat larger girl all my life, I know I feel personally offended by this on so many levels. Anyway, feel free to talk to me!

Update!

Hey everyone!

                I know it’s been a while, but this is just a quick little update to hear if any of you lovely readers are going through anything similar to what I am. So, technically, being home (still), I have been doing nothing. BUT, I've actually been doing quite a lot! That’s not sarcasm. (I know, hard to tell on the computer. Haha). Anyway, I've been applying to jobs online, which completely sucks. Also, I've been setting tons of personal goals. Stay with me, I promise it’s less lame than it sounds. I've been trying to eat right and get in shape—that’s been my main focus and it’s so much easier when you have plenty of time to focus on it. Also, I've been choreographing the songs I’m going to teach my little kids at theater camp in a few weeks. Oh, and I decided to learn piano, so I bought a lesson book and am using my mom’s old keyboard every day. I’m also reading “East of Eden” by John Steinbeck every night before I go to sleep, seeing as I always wanted to and never had time. Finally, I’m trying to keep my house, specifically my room, clean and organized. This one is a complete work in progress, but I’m proud of myself nonetheless! If anybody else can relate, I would certainly love to hear about it!

Peace and love,

Emmy

More Exciting News!

Hellooooo everyone!

                My studio consensus is in….and I was placed in an acting studio! I don’t know if I’m allowed to say which one specifically (so I won’t), but all that you guys need to know is that it’s not musical theater, as I had originally intended. Before you start feeling bad for me, let me just say this much: I’m not disappointed! You may be a little surprised, but trust me, I have plenty of justifications of why I’m still just as excited.

                First, Tisch is one of the best drama schools, so getting in at all is a big enough accomplishment. Second of all, I always thought that my acting was good, but not fantastic or anything too special. But the fact that I could sing and dance, and in addition was an average actor, made me think that musical theater was the only place for me. The idea that someone saw potential in me just from two, one-minute long monologues makes me feel like a completely different person. Yes, this changes my plan a little bit, but maybe that’s what I needed: a game-changing, completely unexpected opportunity. Although I am a little worried that I’ll be losing the “musical theater” part of myself (which is most of me), I also know that so many new doors that I thought were closed for me are now open.

                Now, one thing I would like to clear up is what exactly Tisch is, and what it actually means that I got into an “acting studio.” Okay, so Tisch is a conservatory-like drama school that is a part of New York University in New York City, also called Manhattan, for those of you who are completely lost;) You do have to get accepted to the university academically in addition to getting chosen in the audition process, just as a heads up to some of you hopefuls out there! There are eight studios within Tisch: one for the technical and production aspect of things, one for musical theater and the rest for different types or methods of acting. I can give more details about actual classes and workload and stuff once I get there (since I really don’t know about that yet at all), but for now, that’s the basic plot of my future college experience. If you’re looking into Tisch as a possibility, or NYU at all for that matter, it is pretty expensive—which is yet another hurdle in my life at the moment. I just wanted to warn you so none of you would get sticker shock when doing your research.

                Now that you know what Tisch is, my story seems a lot more exciting, right? Yay for being in the loop!:) My final reason for not being disappointed with an acting studio (yes, we’re back to that), is that I went through not one (like most students), but two emotionally stressful rounds of college auditions at five schools in different states each time. During all of this, I got rejected by all of them until my very last audition this year. I’m not very pretty, I’m not “hot” or “sexy” in any way, I’m strangely shaped and an odd height and yet, this school thinks I have the promise to be a real, professional actress. Not that your looks define your talent, they just really help you in the acting business, unfortunately. This opportunity means the world to me because I thought that I didn't have the talent, but now I can say that the other schools simply didn't see it. Please comment with any questions, feedback, or suggestions! Love you guys!

                                                          Peace and love, 

                                                                Emmy

Exciting News!!

Hey Guys!

                I know this blog isn't completely set up and looking pretty yet, but I wanted to start off my personal entries with a bang, so here it goes……..I got accepted to Tisch at NYU! After a two-year audition process (which will be a whole other post on its own), someone finally noticed me in my very last audition!

                As of right now, I’m not sure what studio I got into because I auditioned for both Acting and Musical Theatre (MT being my first choice, of course), but it really doesn't matter to me at this point. I just want to make Theatre my living and this is the best kick-start I could have asked for!

              

         I am extremely excited because this means so so so so so much more to me than just getting accepted to one of the top theatre institutions in the country (although that’s enough in and of itself). Being from a small town in Connecticut, moving to NYC is going to be, like, the biggest thing I've ever done! So now, this blog is going to be a little different than what I had originally planned. I’m going to be able to tell you (my lovely readers) the truth about my college experience and my new lifestyle. If you have any questions, comments, or advice for me, feel free to ask me or leave a comment below! Also, if there’s anything specific you’d like to ask about the audition process, Tisch or anything at all, I’d love to address them in a post, so just let me know! This blog should be just as much about you as it is about me!

Peace and love,

Emmy 

January 14- First Blog Ever!

Hey bloggers/people who are interested in my personal life!

Since this is my first blog, I thought I'd just kind of introduce myself and put everything out there. I know not many people are actually going to read this because really...who the heck am I? Just some nobody. So, anyway, the purpose of this particular blog is to give myself some form of stress relief via venting, since a lot of my life is forced to be private right now. Warning: I realized when I lump all of my personal life in one place, it sounds kinda sad, but I promise that if you stick with me, I am a very entertaining person, so eventually my blogs will become a little more uplifting.

To begin, I am a freshman in college and I just finished my first semester of college ever. WOO! I am a Theater major and am enrolled to begin the Elementary Education major at the beginning of my sophomore year as well. However, I am currently in the process of re-auditioning for schools with musical theater departments because my true dream is to be on Broadway (eventually). The school I am currently at has very limited theater opportunities and since I want serious, rigorous training, I'm just ready to try something new. I live on campus, but I come home almost every weekend since my parents only live like 40 minutes away. I am beyond in love with theater. I have a younger sister named Sarah who is a freshman in high school (eww). I also have a boyfriend of about a year and a half named Stephen who is a junior in high school. (And yes, I get cougar comments all the time and no, they are no longer funny).

My life has gotten slightly complicated with the start of this year. I found out that I might have a health complication that could lead to me not having children (which is the only part of my future that I thought I had figured out), I have severe depression and anxiety (which I refuse to take medication for) and now, my parents are getting divorced. Before you feel bad for me, my anxiety has always been a part of my life that I just thought was a part of my nervous and slightly neurotic personality. When it got paired with depression when my aunt died of cancer three years ago, it got pretty scary. It also increased when I got to college because I had a lot of time to myself to think...and panic, so things got pretty bad. Anyway, trying to deal with all this stuff while knowing that I have to go back to school next week has gotten me pretty overwhelmed, but this venting is already making me feel better. So far, blogging is a relatively good therapy. Just hoping to keep my chin up and look for the bright side as much as possible for right now!