Hey bloggers/people who are interested in my personal life!
Since this is my first blog, I thought I'd just kind of introduce myself and put everything out there. I know not many people are actually going to read this because really...who the heck am I? Just some nobody. So, anyway, the purpose of this particular blog is to give myself some form of stress relief via venting, since a lot of my life is forced to be private right now. Warning: I realized when I lump all of my personal life in one place, it sounds kinda sad, but I promise that if you stick with me, I am a very entertaining person, so eventually my blogs will become a little more uplifting.
To begin, I am a freshman in college and I just finished my first semester of college ever. WOO! I am a Theater major and am enrolled to begin the Elementary Education major at the beginning of my sophomore year as well. However, I am currently in the process of re-auditioning for schools with musical theater departments because my true dream is to be on Broadway (eventually). The school I am currently at has very limited theater opportunities and since I want serious, rigorous training, I'm just ready to try something new. I live on campus, but I come home almost every weekend since my parents only live like 40 minutes away. I am beyond in love with theater. I have a younger sister named Sarah who is a freshman in high school (eww). I also have a boyfriend of about a year and a half named Stephen who is a junior in high school. (And yes, I get cougar comments all the time and no, they are no longer funny).
My life has gotten slightly complicated with the start of this year. I found out that I might have a health complication that could lead to me not having children (which is the only part of my future that I thought I had figured out), I have severe depression and anxiety (which I refuse to take medication for) and now, my parents are getting divorced. Before you feel bad for me, my anxiety has always been a part of my life that I just thought was a part of my nervous and slightly neurotic personality. When it got paired with depression when my aunt died of cancer three years ago, it got pretty scary. It also increased when I got to college because I had a lot of time to myself to think...and panic, so things got pretty bad. Anyway, trying to deal with all this stuff while knowing that I have to go back to school next week has gotten me pretty overwhelmed, but this venting is already making me feel better. So far, blogging is a relatively good therapy. Just hoping to keep my chin up and look for the bright side as much as possible for right now!
